I underwent a colonoscopy yesterday and I feel lousy. I have
no desire to eat or drink. I slept and slept and slept and still just want to
sleep, 24 hours later. My head is athrob in a vise-like pain across my
forehead. My spiritual peace is not in balance, either. My heart feels
uncertain about my love life. Unfortunately, my sad financial picture plays
into this… but it shouldn’t. I have murmuring thoughts of coming out of
retirement to be independent once more. I am not always happy at home with Ron.
I am the one to blame. He is just who he is. He is earnest, authentic and loyal
but my lifestyle expectations clash with his. Beggars can’t be choosers, so I
go along with. My wish is to be
independently living and still have adventures with Ron. Oh, I don’t know but
yes I do. My weakness gets me into these unhappy relationships. I’m at a low
point, physically and spiritually and it will pass. This stretch of road is
rocky but it will surely even out. It always does, and I will always know that I
can make lemonade from the lemons in my life.
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